OMFG!I am so flipping pissed/upset...Well,my friend's you know,that once a month girl thing was going on for like 3 weeks.Her dad took her to the hospital last night and they found out she has anemia(look it up,i lost the link i had).Now,she called all of us(excluding me...)and told them all.I found out this morning after being yelled at for complaining I didn't know,because everyone thought I did.I'm upset about that,cause all my friends(except one)seem to get mad at me for the simplest reasons.I don't know what I do wrong,but they find a way to get pissed.And sometimes,they completely ignore me and you know how much that hurts?They've all been my friends for 2 or more years and we spend everyday around eachother,shouldn't they realize I have issues about being alone or neglected(I didn't have the best childhood ever,but I won't complain cause I know people who have had worse),but they still just leave and ignore me.And a while ago,I was going through tough times and I started cutting...I know I shouldn't have,but I didn't know what else to do.And I told a couple of my friends and showed them my wrist(and i'll tell yah,it's really disturbing seeing what a broken ceramic figurine can do).And you know what they did?Just looked at my wrist,glared slightly at me,and said not to do it again.The next day,the same friend who now as anemia*points to top of post*told us SHE cut herself.You could hardly tell though,they weren't that deep.And yah know what?Everyone got sooo worried and started cooing over her and asking why she did it.Her answer?Her dad yelled at her!OMG,my parents yell at me all the time,and you don't see me cutting myself 'cause of that!I said that out loud,and a guyfriend of mine starts screaming at me,saying i'm just a stupid attention-wanting whore,saying I probably didn't have a reason to cut myself.Ok,let's get this straight,my grandpa died,my grandma was dieing in the hospital(she's dead now though),my entire family ignored me for 3 months(and trust me,my family could fill up Texas,so that hurt),my friends just didn't care,and I was emotionally abused by my own mother.Yea,I totally didn't have a reason*sarcasm*And this all happened like a while ago,so she didn't have anemia,so I don't know why they cared so much.I'm getting so sick of her,it's like she's ruling my life...And I think my parents like her more than me too..She's what they've always wanted in a daughter,my dad even told me that.I just wanna crawl under a rock and die..If you've read this far,wow,someone that might actually care.I thank you and i'm sorry I wasted part of your life...